17.6.17

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I know this time is fleeting so here, at least, they will forever be my sweet little girls with bedhead and matching jammies! Plus, oh how I have missed black and whites!!!

9.5.17

8.5.17

Cassie and little Martin

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I'm not sure the people I love understand what a joy it is for me to photograph them:) Its just one way for me to show my love, and I could not be any happier for sweet Cassie and her beautiful growing family!

So proud of you Cassie and the incredibly sweet mother you are:)

xx

Eden.

Contax 645
Film 

7.6.16

Phoebe and Jae 

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It was so much fun to photograph Phoebe and Jae! Honestly, something about the way this shoot went just left me feeling like I had spent the afternoon hanging out with Merin. I can't think of a better feeling:) And as I am waiting to get some film back from the lab from their beautiful wedding in Waterton and Bragg Creek, I thought it would be fun to post a few from their engagement shoot a few months back:)

xx

Contax 645
Fuji Film
Kodak Film

4.9.15

Vancouver BC

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 I'm trying to figure a lot of things out. I've been trying for a while now. And for a bit I think I have it. Then I look a little deeper into my heart and wonder, have I just brushed what I don't want to face into a corner? Into a part of my heart that is just harder to get to? This summer I wanted to keep busy. the kind of busy that doesn't even really let you catch your breath. The summer is behind us now and it was fun, and I have 3 happy summered kids. But now I can breath. I can think. And it lets my heart starts to hurt where I've crambed the hurt into. It's hard to explain, and I'm not really sure I could no matter how long I pushed and pulled through my thoughts. Sometimes there just aren't the right words. But one thing I'm sure of is everyone wants to feel secure. Somehow I have it in my heart that when I lost my sister I lost that sence of security as well. And of all the things I want, I want to talk to my sister again. To feel that love. The feelings that come with a close friendship. I can't seem to filter through the loss, and because of that I have turned it off. Its a weak move. I'm fully aware of it. Not only is it weak its not working, but I'm working on it. I want to open my heart and thoughts again. Please don't judge me in this. I am simply trying to do my best. To be the best mother to my children that I can. To love them all equally. To give each of them that feeling of security and love. If my thoughts upset you I would only ask that you try to be patient with me. Sometimes I may need to talk about Merin, and other times it will simply be about my little family that I focus on. As this is how my life flows now. Somedays I can feel whole and happy, then something like the first day of Ysa's school comes and my heart breaks for my sister and Mike. That they miss it. That I don't. They miss their first baby going to school as I watch that same baby, my baby go into school. Everything in me wishes my sister was here. And these are the moments I feel weak, or broken, or something isn't healing like it should... So I breath in and turn it off. I turn away from the memories of Merin and onto the present. I guess because its been five years since the accident and I want to be past this point. I want to be whole again. I'm working it.

Contax 645
Fuji film